"I want it to be over"

 "I want it to end" You could say one day, it was weird. Everything on paper is perfect. The bills are paid on time, the kitchen is warm, and your family waves to you from the living room. By all accounts, you should be content. So why does looking at a safe, stable life feel like looking through a pane of glass?

"I want it to end" Why do you want it to end? Your parents love you, everyone love you, you're not alone, are you?

"I want it to end" But you had been served silver platter your whole life, what are you sad about?

"I want it to be over." But you saw how hard your parents tried to make a living for you even though it hard.

It's okay to feel like you want it to end, we hear you. You mean a lot in this world. Someone will miss you, your pet will be waiting for you. 

There will be better days where the sun shine warm and right to cradle you warm, there will be days where you'll be laughing until your stomach hurts, there will be days where you might meet the love of your life. And if the future doesn't assure you; It is okay if today is just about getting through. Your pain is valid.

You matter. Keep living

If these feelings are familiar to you, please know you don't have to carry them alone.

Help is available.

United States

• Suicide & Crisis Lifeline: Dial or text 988 (Available 24/7, free, and confidential).

• Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741 to connect with a crisis counselor 24/7.

• The Trevor Project (for LGBTQ youth): Call 1-866-488-7386 or text START to 678-678.

• Veterans Crisis Line: Dial the suicide and crisis hotline, then press 1, or text 838255

Indonesia

• Emergency Services: Dial 119 or 112 for immediate medical or life-threatening emergencies.

• LISA Suicide Prevention Helpline (Love Inside Suicide Awareness): Call 0811-3855-472 (Available 24/7 in both Indonesian and English).

Global Directories (For Readers Outside These Areas)

• Find A Helpline: findahelpline.com

• Befrienders Worldwide: befrienders.org

• International Association for Suicide Prevention (IASP): iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

I wrote this as an awareness, truly, if you had thought about it, please reach out to someone or anyone.